Let's talk Love: Episode 1

Love.

Such a theme…

Love is the engine of our lives. The motor of our fears, our comfort, our joy, and our pain. There is absolutely nothing that is not, in some way, related to love.

But—what is love?

To me, love is caring. Love is respect. Love is wanting the best for others and for yourself, genuinely, without hidden interests.

And yet, lately, I have been experiencing not only its beauty, but also its opposite.

I can joyfully say that I am surrounded by wonderful people. True friends. With them, there is so much care, so much support, so much positive energy flowing between us. They make me feel at home. They remind me that I am not alone. That love is pure, and that we are beings of light.

But love has also revealed to me the horrors of pain. Someone says, “You’re amazing,” yet they take advantage of it. Someone says, “I care,” yet they don’t listen. Someone says, “I love you,” and then betrays your trust.

I understand—we are all human. We make mistakes, and we learn. Because I know this, I try to create caring environments where mistakes are allowed, even welcomed, as part of exploration. And yet, some people prefer to play by their own rules, even if it means you will be hurt.

Where I am from, there is a saying: Friends are forever, but partners come and go.
And yet, we often shape our lives around our partners, risking the loss of friends in the process. We treat partners as “forever,” while the friends who remain after that “forever” ends are the ones we overlooked.

If everyone has the capacity to love, why do we struggle so much to love rightly?

At times, I almost wish I couldn’t feel. And when the pain is strong enough that I finally go numb, I start to miss my humanity.

So I ask the Universe:
What am I supposed to learn from love hurting me?
And most of all—was that even love?